Monday, Monday

Today is a dreary, rainy day. Not a bad thing because I have lots to do around the house. The challenge is that staying around the house makes me think about eating. I use eating as a form of procrastination and as a reward system. If I fold this load of laundry, I can eat lunch. If I pick up family room, I can have the next snack. I spend way too much time thinking about food and not enough getting my daily chores done.

My happy news today is that I had both a successful, Saturday and Super Bowl Sunday. On Sunday, I did eat more than my daily points, but I ate foods that I could count and was only 4 points over. Much better than my usual pig outs. So I feel pretty good today, not bloaty from too much salt. Now on to that laundry ...

Super Saturday

Yes, I had a successful Saturday. I made my own little sandwich, packed some mini carrots, popped some air popped popcorn in the micro and threw in a few emergency rations, just in case. You would think I was going far from civilization the way I prepared. Nope, just another volleyball tournament. For those that have never experienced watching your daughter play in a volleyball tournament it is a crowded, noisy, loud event where you have no control over your time. There isn't usually enough time to go somewhere to eat and surprise, surprise most of the facilities don't allow you to bring your own food. They have concessions that sell all the high calorie snacks, hotdogs, popcorn, nachos, pretzels, candy. Add that to all the stresses that go on with your kid and their performance, playing time, moodiness .... get the picture. If I don't prepare, I'm stuffing my face with some off the charts crap.

Today is Super Bowl Sunday. We don't have any party plans, due to vball tourney mentioned above (remember no control over time). I'm going to allow for some type of treat. I'm hoping I can keep it under control. I'm going to encourage my husband to get wings or something else that I don't like.

I don't even have a favorite team this year, I'll just have to pick one during the game using criteria like: cutest quarterback, best color uniform, background stories, team that is behind. Isn't that how everyone picks their favorites?

You Can Do It

Not a bad day in my little diet world. Showed a gain of .6 but when you only apply yourself 3 days out of 7 what do you expect. Especially if you don't exercise. So this is one of those weeks where I just say, coulda been worse, and move on. I am still 38 pounds lighter than I was this time last year and that is something to celebrate. If I could lose 38 pounds this year, wow, well I don't think that is realistic or even going to happen. But, the good news is if I lose even 15 more pounds I will be pretty happy with my body and my self. Fifteen pounds, that is like nothing compared to what I have already lost. Everybody join in and say "You can do it" ala that guy in the Water Boy movie. Yes I can....yes I can.

Hello? Exercise

Got on the scale this morning. No big surprise, I've been seeing the same numbers all month. I am totally proving to myself that if you don't exercise you won't lose the weight. Of course, I could eat less, however, I really don't want to cut out any more points, so exercise it is. I have too many excuses; the weather, no friends, just don't want to do it. How can I want something so much, yet not be willing to do the work to get it? What does that say about me? Two weeks ago the WW leader said to start with just 10 minutes a day. Maybe that is what I need to do. All I know is something needs to change.

Out of Balance

I can't seem to find balance in my diet this week. My body wants something but I just can't seem to figure out what it is. I have even tried a few taboo items and still can't seem to be satisfied. I am getting very discouraged. This is a critical time and slowly bad habits are creeping back (Diet Cokes, Ruffles, Ranch Dip!!). I do not want to gain the weight back. I don't! Why suddenly am I dropping my guard, a little here, a little there ... it all adds up. Some of it is the cold weather, but still that is not the only reason. I'm not giving up. Don't let me!